"Scared money don't make none." - Kelis
it finally happened: I got a phone call yesterday from a guy who got mentioned in this online journal the first week I was writing. He wasn't amused that I had put him out there by name, upset because he thought I was thinking about him a certain way, and so on and so forth. Its one of my greatest fears with this thing. It started off called "better left unsaid" because I'd made a habit of biting my tongue. I'm always worried that something I say is going to offend someone, not allow them to continue to think of me as this nice guy, the nicest guy they know. Well, I used to be. I do try to make an effort to give people nicknames here to protect their anonymity as this is a public place but I'm not going to apologize for anything I say here. Its what I was thinking on that day at that moment. I haven't done anything to you except use something that you've said or done to create a context with which I can understand the world and my life better. None of this is about you, its about me. I thought long and hard yesterday about editing that early post and taking down his name but fuck it. I'm sorry that feelings were hurt but I'm not sorry I said it and I'm not even going to explain and justify why the statement was valid. Its just me cat...and its not about you.
the arts: Scooby Doo the movie? Wow. i have nothing constructive at all to say other than that Freddie Prinze Jr. was the best part of the film. That should give you some idea of how strange this film was. I didn't even understand what was going on half the time. And every trailer before it sucked. Country Bears? Wow. Although I did get a PPG: The movie trailer but it wasn't the good Mojo Jojo one they are running on TNT (it absolutely rules. Mojo knows drama). Minority Report? A little long but pretty darn good. Apparently I like bald chicks as Agatha had me hooked from the moment she screamed "Murder!" Afterwards though I really wanted to drink pepsi, buy a lexus, shop at the gap and wear a bulgari watch. Mad product placement, yo. It took us a hundred years to get out of the parking lot though. I so desperately wanted to motor under the little chain and escape. I will drive the mini-cooper before all is said and done. We even saw one being rented at the fancy rental car place in beverly hills. Red with a Union Jack on the roof. I almost stole it. Let's motor, for real.
Buy Wanderland. Just pony up the dollars. Scared Money and Little Suzy are the stand out tracks but the majority of the album is pretty damn strong. Its amazing what the Neptunes can do when they have an entire album to work with. Its just aural pleasure. That's all.
politicking: I always knew there was a reason The Fountainhead was my favorite read when I was in High School, I just didn't know it made me a slightly right wing libertarian. But according to the Political Compass test that's exactly what I am. I'm mostly a social anarchist, which I think is kind of cool, but my mistrust of government, government instituted social programs and government instituted corporate controls makes me a little more right wing than I am comfortable with. But maybe its just me breaking out of the box. Ayn Rand's concept of individualism and selfishness really speaks to me and what I think about the world. Most specifically this:
Ayn Rand defines 'selfishness' as concern for one's own interests.
In most dictionaries, it's the excessive or exclusive regard for self, and a disregard for others.
I'm with Ayn. I don't think having the greatest concern for one's own interests is married to a disregard for others. Its probably why I went on a whole capitalism/libertarian tirade way back when.
But anyway my political compass? economic left/right: 0.88 authoritarian/libertarian: -4.88
I wonder if this means one day I'm going to just tune out and live homeless in berkeley pontificating on the streets so that I can control both my independence and my pocketbook without any of the confines of society? Probably so.