"I don't really care about that thing, just get involved." - Raphael Saadiq, Get Involved (featuring Q-Tip) (The PJ's Soundtrack)
Hi.
So nice to see you again.
Welcome back to the inside of my mind. I've been away for a minute trying to figure out how fucked up I really am but I'm back now. I might still be as fucked up as I was before but it's a little different.
It's time to talk about some shit.
I wonder if one of the truths about growing older is that regrets are inevitable? As I deal with my own fears with the relative shortness of life, I become ever more aware of the lost opportunities that will likely not present themselves. 2003 has been the first year of my life that I've had regrets. My biggest regret is not following my instincts when I got that horrible phone call and making that trip. I let fear get in the way of what I felt was right on that day. I've let people leave without saying goodbye in a proper way. I hate goodbyes but I've found I hate not being straight up more. I have missed the chance to spend time with people I love and see them grow and prosper for completely selfish reasons. I have not said "I love you" when my heart required it. I have second guessed myself far too often. I have let fear thrive where it should be dying. There are challenges for 'O4, big dog. Are you up for them?